Growing up in a Catholic household, we got our therapy from priests - mostly this just ended up making me feel guilty about anything and everything, even shit I've never done. Now that I'm not a practicing Catholic anymore, I'm seeking help from professional listeners.
It's weird to talk about my problems for an hour. I don't have anything disastrous going on, and I kind of freaked out a little before my last session. Like my problems weren't really important enough to discuss...why waste my time? Or the therapist's time?
But that's when I realized I needed to talk about them. Once our session started, I saw that the things I need help with ARE valid. I need goals to work through these problems, and I can make actual progress with the sessions that I'm in. I felt really validated.
I was also given the task of finding things that affirm me, on a daily basis. I've noticed a pattern - most of them are related to my interactions with other people (well, that seems kind of obvious, I think). When people come looking for my help or just need someone to talk to - I get joy out of that. It's really interesting, find the patterns in my behavior. I'm trying not to fixate on that or anything, though. I kind of just want to start off by noticing how I react to situations, not dwelling on why I feel a certain way.
In other news, the Brazilian wax hurt a lot.
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